My New
So it's only been a few weeks I've been excited about this blogging thing, created two posts, let only 3 people know about it up until now- being the overthinking introvert I am- and guess what? I'm already facing this 'blogger's block'. Not because I can't find something to write about but because I'm unnecessarily thinking too much about others' impression.
"Let's write about this interesting historic event... oh no, the previous post was history-related. People are gonna think I'm the history-lover geek who only posts about historic stuff." "Then let's write the review of the book I've just finished.....no, that might not interest others." "Then what about the thought I had the other day about.....no, no, that won't do. It's too early to write about such sentimental stuff."
Yeah, this is going on. Annoyed, I decided to write about this very block that's been keeping me from making any decision. I try climbing up but end up falling into this pitfall of overthinking what 'others' might think. History was going to repeat itself once again. Let's snap out of it. And just now I've found what today's post is going to be about.
Let's talk about the 'spotlight effect'. We think we are in the spotlight being observed by everyone. So, we try to present ourselves as flawlessly as we can and we're ever conscious about the fact that the viewers are going to make a remark at our slightest stumble. But come to realize it- if everyone thinks so, it means you are not the one under the spotlight from someone else's point of view. So, this 'others' you are giving so much damn about don't even care if you topple over a puddle of mud. Yes, they might give you a look of pity or snigger at you- but no need to assume they're gonna cherish this memory forever. Cuz they are the center of their universe. Just as you feel about yourself. So, what's the point of getting scared on your own show? Live it to your heart's content so you're not left with regrets of the missed opportunity. After lots of lost opportunities, I've come to believe that short term embarrassment is better than long term regret.
Easier said than done- which is why I'm having to remind myself this fact in the form of lecture supposedly aimed at others :) It's ironic how we sacrifice our happiness oftentimes to satisfy the others who have nothing more to do than make a remark and pass by while we have to live on with the regrets piled up on the way.
Haa...that was a good talk.
Have a good day and stay tuned for the next post : D